Feb 09, 2006 when we started to know each other on a cyber net which is called Fwendz.com I was then 3rd year college and I'm in a relationship with my boyfriend that we had already a gap in our relationship cause of misunderstanding and arguing. Never mind. Anyway, we get along to this online cyber net exchanging messages to each other until it last 1 month then we decided to meet in personal. While I was going to school I never thought that the guy I was thinking who's name is "Bamboo" is the same man who I was seeing for many years ago. I didn't expect this to happen, but I think this was really the time and chance to know him better way back in our high school days. coz we are both in the relation by then. As I can remember this named "Bamboo" told me he still going to school and and in 3rd year taking up Computer Science course. Wow! this is cool! we have the same course. we can relate each steps we take. Times goes by, we meet each other. That was March 2006 when we decided to see each other, after school I went home and plan to go to an Internet cafe to do some homeworks from my major Computer subject. He texted me if we can meet after dinner. So I said Yes. Hours pass I had finished my dinner and getting ready for the papers I have to bring with me going to the Internet cafe. As I arrive there, 15 minutes after this guy enters the Internet cafe, I never expect that he's the one I was about to meet. He come after to my hub then said HI! Oh my God, it's you? I knew you since high school but we never had the chance to talk. " unsaon man nto pag storya dati na pirme man mo dikit sa imong uyab ktong insik" he said. then I get blushed. hahaha! "ikaw ra man diay na oie. sa net pa jud ta magkaila usab. So kumusta kna?" I replied to him. I only have one chair with me, so I let him get another extra chair to sit beside me while I'm doing my homework. He talked about the pictures I send to him, at first when he saw those pictures that I emailed to him he already suspect that I am the little girl he was peeking in when I arrive to school and waits me until my dad fetch me to go home. We laugh to those memories we tackled up. Then he ask me if it's ok with me if he could just send me home after I finished my work. So i said it's okay. After he left me at the gate of our house, he told me that he will call me up as soon as he arrive to there house. 1 hour has passed, the telephone rings.. So he is on the line..we talked things that made us laugh, like we are still in Elementary, he already knew me he has this memories that I can't even recall. But he admitted that since he saw me he already had a crush on me. Naks! ehem! (bata pa gani) aw..it doesn't matter. it's just an inspiration and admiration that I have from you. Okay. okay.. then. Thanks for that. But he can't take off those times I had with my ex BF that made him so irritated. coz every time he saw us he feels so empty and jealous that he cannot hesitate to feel it even he had a relationship with his GF. (duh..palibhasa di kasi cla maxado intimate sa isa't isa that time, kaya jelly jud iyang drama. sorry ka, hindi pa kita type nun eh)hahahaha! *wink So, ikaw diay si Hermann Hutalle? and sobrang makulit na student way back in our high school days? you were in forth year and I am second year that time. So we are @ years in gap. then we opened a strange topic that is so weird, I told him that I was dreaming of a guy since I was in grade 6, that I was talking to him but I can't even see his face, it's kinda dark and blurb. When I talk to him he never stares me in my eyes. I don't know what does it mean..then he reacted to what I just said. Me too! I had that dreams too. I am talking to the girl in my dreams but I can't see her face same as yours. I even tried to talk to that girl but she can't stares directly to my eyes. Hmmm??? Do you believe in soul mates? " I said.., maybe yes, and maybe not. he told me that he believes in it, but it doesn't matter if it is true or not. but it's my dream telling me maybe I can have that girl in my life soon if I can still wish I could have her in my life. Naks namn...napaka hopeful nya huh! we never noticed the time we talked, it's 4 o'clock in the morning but yet we never done talking to many conversations. I can't remember what those topics we just open and talk, and talk, and talk..so we end up the talking with good night and sweet dreams. I have to sleep coz I still have my class at 8 AM. after we had talked, he text me saying "kanus-a nsad kaya ta usab magkita?" hahay..ang bilis nmn ma fall itong guy na to. pero what can I do? I have to fix things up with my boyfriend. duh.I though he's the one who can help you out. Well, that morning he's the first person who text me GOOD MOrning. He asked me of my time schedules, which I gave to him right away. afternoon I have finished my class I decided to go home early. But suddenly there is someone who waits me outside the gate in front of our school. Damn! it's my bf, I'm not ready to talk to him. Although I am not guilty to what I have done last night but he insisted that we will have dinner and talk. When I enter to his car I just sit down and my eyes are far from his side mirror thinking if I just have a broke up with him coz it's not working anymore. I want to end up our relationship coz maybe this time I finally found the real guy who can love me. yes, my bf loves me, but I can't imagine how many years passed that he lied to me about his personality. Never mind about the whole story, but instead I will fight for the feelings I have to the guy I met before. It never comes to my mind that I will use this guy just to be far from my boyfriend, I know he can love me, I know I can love him. but, I have something to do to end up with my boy. He knew about it all. in fact he told me he don't want to ruin my relationship with my boyfriend, he's just right there if I need his shoulders to lean on. weeks passed the momentum turns to gray, he told me that we never gone far to have our relationship coz my boyfriend loves me so much. I can't understand why he just turns to that way. i ask him what happen. He told me, your boyfriend came to see me, and ask me if I can let you go coz you loved each other and planned to get married soon as you graduated. He confronted me to let you go, so I did it. "total bago lng man ta nagkaila, tpos kamo diay dugay na kaau, plano nman pud diay ninyo magpakasal. Siya nlng, keysa sa akoa. studyante pa, wla pa naka graduate. Siya kay professional, cgurado na kaau imong future sa iyaha. Sorry nlng kaau kay nanghimasok ko sa inyong relationship. My God! he told you that? I get pissed off! In my anger, I look for a time to see my ex. yes! my ex already coz I have finally told him I will end our relationship coz it's already fading. My love for him doesn't work anymore and I think our relationship will not grow if each one of us has this secret of one's personality. He knew all of me, but he never give his self the chance to say it to me what's the real thing behind him. It's very important that I will know who's the real him before we settled to our married life if he has the plan of marrying me. right? after we talked with my ex. Hermann called me, he wanted to talk to me. So I told him let's meet to my friend's house. So we did talk, I told Hermann if we can see each other and talked again coz I have made the final decision with braking up to my ex boyfriend. I explained to him that he's not the reason why I have broke up to my ex, it's just that I never longer love him, and all the words that my ex have told him was just an excuse for him to get me back from you. So it was all cleared. We told to our selves...I thought I will lose you. Never been that on my mind, I'm just trying you to chose who you really love the most, but it's me you chose. Thank you. Hermann said to me that night. Until months have passed we get into our relationship. We are seeing each other after i get home from school, I meet him at his place where his friends are also there. I have fun together with them. They all know the story behind our relation. But it's all fine, they never mind what happen for as long us they see us happy. It don't bother anymore. We finally have the answers in our prayers, that we hope one day we could have the so called "Family and 2 become 1". 24th of February 2006 when he proposed to me at the basketball court in there place " Will you marry me?" those words was made me blushed and tears fall into my eyes that I can't imagine he made asking it to me, and I said Yes! 3 months of relationship I get pregnant, and we decided to get married. Although I haven't yet graduated but I have this strong feeling that I will graduate and continue the dreams and plans that my parents wish for me. One year later the love we have it grows with an angel that God give us. the little angel that we learn to love and until now, we cherished those memories we had. although we encountered all ups and downs but still we hold on to each others hands that made us more stronger and better parents to our child. This is the life that made us know each other. Bad or good but we still we made to handle it safe. This is us, the real true loving couples that hang on tight to bring the best of the Family we wished for.
I hope this will be the stage of completeness in our lives as husband & wife. I'm not looking for a perfect relationship that we should have. We know trials are challenging us to be more strong & hold on to each other hands. I don't want to say anything about this relationship of ours anymore coz it's hard for me to post it here maybe I will just cry.. I don't want to longed for so much hopes that I know we can't be proud of. We both know imperfects are all about to seen in us. But still, I have respect and love to show and give to you as my husband and as your wife. You know what I mean. 
I hope someday it will be the most happiest day ever happened to us. Although there is happiness that Heinz brought us but I know people will change. . . and someday, I hope you'll be one of them.
